I didn't really want you to think,

I didn't really want you to think, That I had fallen into some kind of deep madness. I thought that I would save you, that I would protect you from insolent stares. I... I'm sorry that everything was like this, that I was guilty. I'm not looking for an excuse in your eyes. I want you not to see the falseness in my words. I'm naked in front of you right now. I am open to you both body and soul. You see, these rough floors... they're for those who've learned how to live. I am not one of their unknown number. I want to be the first. And... for you. I'm afraid to describe my suffering., Their fear and apprehension for us. I've never seen anything more beautiful. Your green eyes...