I know, but…

I know, but… Hmm… It’s so hard to explain. So much I want to be ordinary, Not to feel pain and fear, But everything’s moving too fast, fast, fast — Every day it’s like I’m searching for light in the dark, But I can’t keep my footing, and I have no wings to take flight. I feel like I must find something, Somewhere to find myself, But I can’t run away — the fear still sits inside me. I know, but… My feelings rage within me, And my eyes fill with tears. If only I knew the reason, If only I could change something… Oh, give me a clue, wind that sweeps past the tall houses every day — When will the contradictions fade, Where I want to be and where I can be? Maybe I should stay where I’m meant to be, Even if my heart can’t come to terms with it. Yes, I believe in fate, And I can’t oppose it. I don’t even have the strength to seek the light in the darkness. I know, but… My feelings rage within me, And my eyes fill with tears. If only I knew the reason, If only I could change something… How can I find myself? Where should I go? Is there still a chance to save the life within?